April 22, 2007

I'm on the computer playing the Sims. Because no one in the houses is talking to me. My head hurts from all that crying. I wish I could talk to someone about how sad I am and that they wont judge me and just listen. And tell me that everything is gonna be okay. But I got nobody like that in my life. I got no one to confide in. Jay & mom in there talking to one another. I feel like an outcast. Like they don't want me here. Sometimes I feel like leaving. That way I wont feel the pain I feel. When no one talks to me. I'll just have myself to talk to and no one to tall me bad things about myself back. I can believe I'm okay and no one will see that I'm all fucked up inside. They mad I guess cause I fucked up today. Like always. I want nothing else in the world to be happy. But I don't know how to get it.

Tttyl Charel