I crave for you every day. You’re sweet. The way you show your affection for me I couldn’t ask for anything more. You give it to me in just the right dosage. I’ve come to you as my confidant, my other half, the one who I expect to hold me close. I turn to you. It’s crazy how we have grown in such a short time.
I asked some people today. Do they believe in love at first sight? In a way I feel like that’s how I can describe us. How else can you describe the way things went down? The strong bond we feel for one another is like no other I have felt, or experienced. My mind runs a mile a minute with questions on the hows, whys, and what nows.
I’m in love with you. Truth be told, I’ve been in love with who you were for a while now. I’m really fucking digging you. It’s not lust. It’s a, hey this guy right here really got it going on. He makes me feel like he gives a fuck, like I matter, and most importantly, like he will hold my heart with the utmost of sensitivity and care. He won’t abuse it or misuse it. He makes me laugh, smile, and even has brought me to tears. From that night on I knew just how much you really did mean to me. Why else would I have been so hurt? I think because the one person in the world I considered my shoulder, whether you knew it or not, let me down. I was crushed. Well I wouldn’t say all that but I came pretty fucking close. I put you in that “friend I can lean on” role, unbeknown to even myself. And you weren’t there. But on a lighter note, it’s like I know what I’m getting from him. He is game free. These are the vibes I get from you. Am I right? Only time will tell just what god is trying to show us. It’s up to him how this shit goes. We’re just along for the ride. Whatever we have in store for us I definitely like the here and now.
Last night you told me you loved me…WHAT!!? What’s so special about me? I ask you all the time. Because it’s very hard to believe hey bitch your worth someone giving a damn with expecting nothing in return, but the same love you give out. WHAT! This shit has to be too good to be true. Girl you got to be dreaming, that’s what I tell myself. So it’s up to you to prove me wrong. OK?! Hold my heart don’t break it, because it’s yours now. Once I fall I fall hard. I can’t get enough of your crazy yellow ass. The more I get of you the more I want. I want to know your beliefs, your fears, your dreams, and your passions in life. I want it all. I want 100 percent. I can only hope that I do for you what you do for me. That’s what love is right. A fifty fifty deal. Well that was just some more shit I had to get off my chest. I’m done now… talk to you later.
-charel 4/19/09
Fall - J. Holiday
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